I want to forget about how much I hurt someone. I want to forget how much someone hurt me. I want to go back a month and keep myself away from everything that would inevitably crash and burn. We’d all like to go back in time, but the truly courageous route is the one ahead. Dealing with the present and what’s to come, that’s real life.
I wrote this a few weeks ago, right after the events occurred.
Again, crisis averted, and it goes back to it being just us five, sitting around. I feel everyone asking why my glass is full ( I don’t drink much, and much less when it’s whiskey) and my cohost comes to my rescue by saying how I don’t drink because I have one kidney. Of course that night I was especially not drinking because there is just something discomforting about being in a strip club with 4 men that I really don’t know with the exception of my co-host who I trust very much and has proven to be a very respectable guy. There was no way I was going to drink in this situation—my gut said it was just a disaster waiting to happen.
Well, that’s simply not good enough. I now feel a responsibility to keep women that come after me safe, and women who have experienced this before and never spoke out need to know that it is okay to tell their story. It may be much worse than mine, or much better–it doesn’t matter. If you feel like you were wronged, you need to report it. We need to stop this kind of behavior NOW.
Special thanks to all of my friends for having my back, and taking such good care of me. I want to thank my co-host for taking care of me when everything happened–I could not have survived Vegas without you.
And a special thanks to Liora K for letting me express my frustration in this photo shoot, and for always fighting for equality.
It comes down to this—you are not stuck anywhere. It’s all about the choices you make in life. You can choose to pick up and leave at any time, just like you can choose to stay. Nothing is permanent, nothing is infinite—just find something that makes you smile when you wake up in the morning and you will be okay.